Things have been going interestingly lately. Hmmm...where to start? I kinda lost my job or I guess I've been laid off, I can't really tell because there are blurred lines everywhere. I want my job back but at the same time I don't because to be honest I'm not sure if I was satisfied with it in the first place. If there was an easier way...without complications I'd do it.
I recently took a roadtrip with my friends to New Orleans and things took a turn for the bad so that obviously didn't go well. lol. I can't even talk about it!!!
I'm starting to feel like things are turning topsy turvy. Great things are happening but bad things are happening too and I can't help but have the suspicious feeling that I'm gonna get screwed over by someone or something.
For example: I started talking to this guy and his anonymous name will be Jake. So this Jake guy is almost too good to be true and he says the same about me. This feels concieted and awkward to say but when a guy is into me, he is really REALLY into me. Into me so much that I have to ask for space and this guy is actually into me but he's also giving me space which is awkward for me because I've never really had that and it's bugging me that he's not falling out to be with me. He's so sweet and the things he's interested in blows me away. I really like him but I don't wanna be the kind of girl who is suffocating. I know it's stupid but the way that he's not suffocating me feels like I may just screw this one up already. I'll try to be optimistic but it can be pretty difficult with this one.
Hopefully I'll stop being so complex minded and everything will be fine:) I just always hate wanting something so bad it feels like it's going to just blow away in the wind if I don't catch it soon enough. And this is why I'm better at being single than anything else in the world...
